Tävling!

Enkel och rolig tävling, som jag deltog i, som jag tycker att DU borde delta i också!!
http://millahoman.blogg.se/2012/june/tavling-halsband.html#comment

Va med och tävla!

Jag deltog i en tävling, som jag tycker att DU också borde göra =) Lycka till!
http://millahoman.blogg.se/2012/june/tavling-valfri-keps-vaska.html#comment

My Love, My life (poem)

Im laying awake at night
Wish I could see you sleep so tight
I picture your beautiful face
It puts me in a state of grace
With you I live a peacefull life
One day I hope ill be your wife
'couse i will say " I do "
Forever I want to be with you
I hope you feel the same for me
'couse I know this is ment to be
You stole my life, you stole my heart
Your my other half, my other part
So there's only one question to ask you see
Are you ready to settle with me?

~I love you, very much. Yours forever!~



Love (Poem)

There is something I want to tell you
But im not going to
'Couse I fear I will scare you away.
There is feelings I have for you that I wish I could show you
But I cant
'Couse of the distance between us.
But I know that one day, when I can tell you everything,when I can show you everything, there wont be enough words to describe my feelings, there wont be enough ways to show you how I feel.
But I dont mind if it takes a lifetime to find that way and that word, as long as I get to be with you al that time.
As long as you know that my feelings for you are strong, Ill be happy!
As long as you know I love you, and that you love me back just as much,
I cant be happier.

<3



A Poem to someone

A Poem to someone

This song goes on in my head
As much as I think of you
It reminds me of how much I care
But also how much I love you
I hold on to you so hard
Im so afraid to lose you
But I think Its time
Time to let go
Due loving you hurts
But I promise I will never stop
The love never ends
No matter how much it hurts
I find my way.

I just wish that things would be differently.
Just promise to remember
The great time we had
And how much I so love you.

As my headphones hits the floor
And tears rolling down
I sing, just like in the song:

"It's something unpredictable,
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life"

And I think of you.



"Soldiers Wife" (Poem written by me)

I want to become a soldiers Wife.

A soldier stole my heart tonight.

I waited my entire life,

for my dream to come true one night.

But this day I'm al alone,

'couse he's away and not at home.

Al my thoughts is far away,

to him I just want to say,

"I love you with al my heart,

I know you'r my other half, my other part.

I can wait my entire life,

just to be your soldiers Wife".

To another place I dream away,

with you in my arms I will say

"One day I will say ' i do ',

forever I'll stand by you".

Baby, you and me it will be,

I hope you feel the same for me.

With tears in my eyes,

I give you here my goodbyes.

But thats not forever, you will know.

'Couse our love will keep on grow.

So this is my last words today,

and this is the last to say:

" You stole my heart, you stole my life,

someday I become you'r soldier Wife".



This is a poem i wrote long ago to someone special.
Love you Always, Bina


Iono

God knows how long its been since i wrote in my blogg.
But today i thought "what the heck, why not write some" so now i do.

Realy, i dont know what to write about or where to start.
I guess i would say i have alot to write about realy, as many things been happening latly, both good and bad i guess.

So why not start with showing off what iv done today.
I changed fabric on two chairs i have. (From blue to white)




Anyways, also mite aswell show of what i did to my hair the other day, tried a new hairstyle kinda thing.
Was doing it for someone special, but the one i did it for didnt comment it, atleast not that day. So it dont realy matter. Also did it to cheer my self up but failed bigtime.



And well since i cant remember when i wrote last time and at the moment im to lazy to check it, i just have to show pics on my little boy Pontus!
He is now 2 month old.




So anyways. He was born 26/08-10. It was quick, faster then Vincent, and ofc it hurted like mofo!
But im happy he came out fast and healty.
We moved not long after he was born. I got an apartment in Sosdala, a 4bedroom apartment, btut only ganna stay here till about december then we moving in to another apartment im suppose to have instead of this one. This is just tempuary. Anyways, the other one is a 3bedroom apartment but just as big as this one we have now, over 100 square meter.

But there was also this one guy. We been talking for over a year, on and off kinda, he took distance long ago, busy study etc. Anyways, we started to talk more properly, and i fell for him.
Iv been so happy and he was so sweet ya know...
Long story, but i just loved talking on skype with him, al the cute texts i got etc.
He even orderd a ticket to come see me, then he drops a bomb... he told me he is not comming, fear of flying, and thats fine, but the rest, that al the sudden he is not ready for a relationship, he thought i expected to much etc.
What the hell? Iv done nothing, i only showed him my love and al, was so exited and ofc it sounded promising, when he said "if we work out and al is good after our first meeting i will come more next year".
Yea well now, for days, iv been so damn down its unbelivible. Its so empty. So quiet kinda feeling.
No texts, no talk barly, no love. No nothing.
And damn i miss it!
I would wanna tell him to go for it, to come here anyways, to face the fear, couse he can overcome it with love, but i guess he does not feel as much as i do.
But he is sure missing a chanse of a liftime.
But i dont think he care.
I think, there mite be other things he have not yet told me about. Couse i belive its kinda wierd that he al the sudden "oops i found out im not ready yet"..... iono, for me its wierd. I didnt expect to find someone or to fall for someone, but when i did, i didnt mind, and like i said, i was so happy.
And no my happyness does not depend on him only. But when someone does such thing yes al the happyness dissapears for a while.
I guess i just have to get used to the fact he dont love me no more, the silence i feel, the lonlyness i feel and just go back to normal right?
Anyways, i know this much, i dont think he care realy.
Couse if he felt so much for me and say he dont wanna loose me, then why does he do things that pushes me away and soon im gone? Why not try harder then if he realy liked me?
Iono, i can only say what i would have done, and he knows i try alot harder then he have done. But it dont change anything.

So fuck it, im ganna stop writing now as i feel this didnt help either.
Its such bullshit realy, how it al can just slip out of my hands, just like that. Always when im at the happiest... always then.

Lagenhet

Ja en annan har ju sokt ett par hundra lagenheter typ, mest i Malmo.
Men ja nu soker jag ju pa helt andra stallen aven om det gor ont att veta att jag inte kommer bo nara mamma, men jag kommer oavsett vart jag flyttar soka vidare till Malmo, jag vill ju studera dar sedan ju efter mamma ledigheten.

Nu ar ju dock saken den, att jag ar intresserad av en lagenhet i Sosdala och en i Solvesborg.
Pa nagot vis kanns det bast med den i Solvesborg, efter vad jag hort hyresvardar saga om socialen i Hassleholm o hur dom slarvar med att hjalpa till med hyran o sa manga som blivit vrakta pga detta, o sadant vill jag inte riskera om jag flyttar till Sosdala, dock tycker man att de borde ju hjalpa en, nar man har barn eller hur? Som ensamstaende ar det inte samma sak ju.
Men men.
Jag ska snacka med soc i Malmo om en stund, sedan kommer jag ringa pa lagenheten i Solvesborg igen. Jag behover ju veta om han i Solvesborg godkanner mig som hyresgast, for han i Sosdala verkar ju gora det i alla fall.
Ahja, wish me luck huh ^^
Jag uppdaterar ju med hur det blir.

=P

Ja vad ska man saga...
I gar, den 23/6 skrev jag en insandare till City tidningen. Jag vet inte om nagot kommer handa eller om nagon kommer kontakta City, men det handlade om hur jag o vincent blivit behandlade av hyresvardar etc. Inlagget vart fint i tidningen o jag har sparat ett utklipp av det. City sjalva hade lagt till att om nagon hade en lagenhet at hyra ut eller pa nagot vid kunde hjalpa mig sa kunde de kontakta redaktionen.
Idag mailade jag Ida Fjallman pa Heimstaden, som artikeln handlade om och skrev att hon borde lasa tidningen, jag t.o.m. lankade till den, skrev vilket datum det va o vilken sida, sa hon kan kolla arkivet, och papekade att lasningen kunde vara intressant for henne sa det handlade om henne. Vi far la se om hon svarar pa det om ens laser inlagget.

Forutom det, sa ar allt som vanligt. Vi har varit ute idag, pa lang promenad, sa kroppen varker en del. Vi gick lite i olika affarer med Mane o mamma. Det va trevligt, o vincent va sa duktig sa. Han somnade pa en gang, 17.30 nar vi kom hem, han vart mega trott den lille =)

Magen kanns spand och ja funderar pa nar bebisen kommer, den kan ju komma typ nar som helst nu ju. Lite skrammande typ, fast roligt ocksa saklart, men jag e radd for att foda, for ja vet de gor ont som fan =/

Ahja, sitter just nu o bara slappar. Har fyllt i lite papper som jag ska skicka ivag pa mandag, och aven ansokt om lagenheter.

Heimstaden i ett notskal, eller?

Javla skit alltsa, nu har jag mailat en pa Heimstaden fram o tillbaka, o hon e inte lite frack va?
Forst skriver hon att dom prioriterar inte sadana som mig. Va fan, jag e val inte mindre vard eller mindre manniska an nagon annan? Hon har lovat flera ganger att titta pa mitt arende, men skiter i det totalt.
Nar jag mailat igen, sager hon att jag kan inte ga fore i kon, o da papekade jag att dar ar andra som knappt vart sokande lange alls som far lagenhet hur snabbt som helst, ja da erkanner hon att dom gor undantag! Da menar ja pa, vilka ar dessa undantagen, varfor gor de inget undantag till mig som ar i akut behov av en lagenhet? Na da skriver hon att de inte gor undantag for sokande.. Men det va ju det hon skrev innan " ja vi gor ibland undantag for dom som varit aktivt sokande under en kort period"... ehh... vem forsoker hon lura? Jag ar inte dum!
Har hon nagot emot mig kan hon fan saga det rakt ut, men att skita i mig totalt o strunta i mina intresseanmalningar som hon gor ar fan ta mig fel!
Jag har en som kan borga, jag har garanterad hyra betald o allt, men nej da.. dom prioriterar inte sadana som mig..... Snacka om att man kanner sig nedtryckt!
Ja jag ar inte den som ar den, utan jag skrev om detta till City tidningen i Malmo, jag hoppas dom publiserar det ossa, for jag tycker alla ska veta hur jag o vinc blivit behandlade sedan vi kom till sverige, efter allt vi kampat for o fortfarande kampar for!

Sola och bada =)

Idag har vi varit pa stranden, Simone va med oss =)
Vincent fick sina forsta badbyxor, han e for sot i dom! Han vart sa duktig, lekte i sanden, plockade sten, badade lite, at glass!








Soligt ^^

Idag ar det soligt vader, sa harligt!
Vincent, jag och Mane satt pa balkongen och solade oss lite, det va sa skont =)
Just nu sitter vincent i mitt kna o ater klubba. Han vart sa trott efter solandet att han nastan somnade framfor tv'n nar vi gick in, haha =)

I morgon ska Mane ha vincent over natten, det kommer han tycka ar roligt, han alskar Mane.

Jag har val inte mer att skriva egentligen. Betalade MKB sa jag kunde soka lagenheter dar ossa, kanns bra att ha det gjort, sa nu far vi hoppas pa det basta har. Behover lite tur nu, innan bebisen kommer. ^^

Ha de bra, nu ska vi chill'a

Vad ska man saga mer an att man hoppas?

Ja, da forsoker jag liksom mitt basta ordna till viktiga saker i mitt liv. Jag har betalat en rakning jag har, vilket kanns bra, och ska ansoka om skuldsanering snart, nar jag fatt hemskickat lite papper som jag behover. Vet dock inte om det kommer ga igenom men man kan ju alltid prova och jag hade blivit glad om det funkar.
Hall tummarna for mig. Jag ar sa radd att jag knappt vagar hoppas och nojjig att det inte kommer funka alls bara for att jag skiver om det nu.....

Forutom det ar allt bra. Jag har varit lite sjuk men det varsta ar over och bara lite snorig och hostig nu.
Vincent alskar en lat som Simone spelade for honom som heter Higher, han sjunger och dansar till den. Han kanner aven igen Fireflies nar man spelar den.
I morse forresten borjade han sjunga pa "i ett hus vid skogens slut, liten tomte tittar ut...osv.." han sjung vissa ord, borjade mitt i sangen och gjorde alla rorelser helt sjalv. Han ar sa duktig! Mamma e stolt over sin lille gosse!!! PUSS!

Ahja, nu spelar ja lite Bingo, tankte de kunde va gutt att unna sig nagot roligt idag.
Skriver mer en annan gang!
Ciao!

Im so mean! LMAO!

Vinc is a little sick, but aint to bad couse he eats enough and drinks alot.
He turnes 2 years old in two days, cant belive time pass by so fast!
We been chillin' today, raining a little outside on and off, not much thou.

Oh and Mick have text my phone a few times today, so i just had to have some fun with it, as he was trying to be rude and push me down. In one of the msg's he wrote "suck Bakers dick", i started to laugh my ass off and wrote back " Hell yea i will, 8 inch dick yum yum! Its about 10 times bigger then your mosquito bite! Haha" (Now i aint ganna tell ya'll how big Baker have couse i keep that info for my self O.O)
Well Micks answer to that was "yea yea what ever". Hehe. THen he wrote some other stuff, such as "ill send you the 240 pounds then i dont wanna talk more to you" kinda thing, and i wrote back "Oh you finaly understod, good boy!".
(He hates when i say good boy to him) Haha
Am i mean? Ah, na not realy, just having fun on his expense. Nothing can bring me down realy, im happy even thou i dont have my own place and time is running out before baby is born, but im still happy, couse my Baker will come to sweden to be with me and vincent and the new baby, what else can make me more happy? Iv missed him so much and he is such a nice guy, iv known him for quite some time now.

Anyways, im just chillin' vinc is sitting here with me and i belive its about bedtime for him now, he is a little tired.
Ciao!

Sicket ackel!

Akte buss idag, till en secondhand affar, nar vi skulle hem, hoppade jag pa bussen, satte mig med benen i kors, hade sa mega ont i svanskotan sa jag satte mig bekvamt. Da kommer ett javla ackel, slanger sig i satet bredvid. Efter tva minuter brjar han sparka mig helt forbrilt pa mina fotter o mummlar nagot, sa jag sa til honom "Flytta pa dig da for fan, jag satt minsann har forst".
Efter en stunds irriterade att han tyckte jag tog plats, a jag "mamma jag tror jag ska flytta pa mig vill inte sitta bredvid honom" sa jag sager till honom "ursakta mig kan jag fa komma forbi" sa han reser sig upp, sa jag sager "Bra da kan du for fan satta dig nagon annan stans nar du anda at uppe". Han blev irriterad och tyckte at hn kunde fa sitta dar, sa jag satter upp foten o sager skarpt "du ditt javla ackel, det ar bast for dig att du flyttar pa dig for dig vill jag inte ha har" o han satte sig bredvid K, som sa "ar du bog eller, for fan sitt inte har vid mig".
Jag kunde inte lata bli att skratta, han satte sig nagon annan stans.
Saken ar den att det va en extra lang buss o gott om platser da darknappt va nagra pa bussen just da, men att sitta o sparka pa mig nar jag sitter dar, o dessutom har ont och ar gravid, ja det acklet fick minsann vta vilken javla idiot han va o det talade jag vackert om for honom. Han satt bakom mig sedan o fnyste at allt vi sa.
Idiot!

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