Me, Swineflue?
Oh man, im sick!
My boyfriend called the doctor a few days ago, told them the smtoms i have then he had to drive long way to get medication and they gave me medication for swineflue!
Now the stupid thing is regular flue andswineflue have same smtoms as far as i know, and they only give one dose of this medication for swineflue, so if i onl have regulare flue and later get swineflue then i wont get the medication i need.
How stupid is that?
I understand the reason why they wanna give out the medication for swineflue, but still, ya cant just give it to everyone that gets sick without knowing for sure.
Oh well. Been sick for 4 days now, i still have two days of medication to take, and if i dont get better after that then i guess i have to go to the doctor.
Other then that, my adoptiv parents came to England for 4 days to be with me and Vincent.
We stayed in an apartment they rented for them few days, went shopping alot and had pretty good fun.
Im still supriced how good it al went, they seemed to change alot.
oh well , dont wanna talk about it much though.
Im off now, dont feel to good still, i need to lay down.
See ya
My boyfriend called the doctor a few days ago, told them the smtoms i have then he had to drive long way to get medication and they gave me medication for swineflue!
Now the stupid thing is regular flue andswineflue have same smtoms as far as i know, and they only give one dose of this medication for swineflue, so if i onl have regulare flue and later get swineflue then i wont get the medication i need.
How stupid is that?
I understand the reason why they wanna give out the medication for swineflue, but still, ya cant just give it to everyone that gets sick without knowing for sure.
Oh well. Been sick for 4 days now, i still have two days of medication to take, and if i dont get better after that then i guess i have to go to the doctor.
Other then that, my adoptiv parents came to England for 4 days to be with me and Vincent.
We stayed in an apartment they rented for them few days, went shopping alot and had pretty good fun.
Im still supriced how good it al went, they seemed to change alot.
oh well , dont wanna talk about it much though.
Im off now, dont feel to good still, i need to lay down.
See ya
My days, my plans
So, today i was out, shopping for my little boy, some food and what ever he needed. And i bought some stuff for my self aswell, to eat.
Other then that im start to plan my life here in England.
First thing first is to make a phonecall and fill a form, sort money out, get a doctor i can go to with my son, so he can have is injections so he wont get sick, and ofc i wanna find a place to stay for me vinc and my boyfriend, our own place.
Oh i cant wait, to have our own place, more freedom or what ever ya wanna call it. So i can cook dinner for us, have some swedish food lol. Get a sewing mashine so i can start making clothing again i guess, yea there is plenty of things i can think of that i just cant wait to get, and to do.
And i also wanna save up money for the future and things i wanna have, but i dont see my self success on that lol.
But oh well, thuesday, my adoptivparents will get here to visit us, for 3 nights, we ganna stay with them in an apartment they rent. I hope it will al be good and no problems, i would hate to get dissapointed again, know what i mean?
But i dont expect to much. They also ganna meet my boyfriend, we see how that goes. Not that much can happen, and no worries for him, its not like they ganna move over here , haha.
Moving over here and get everything sorted seems unbelivieble, hard to just belive it happen, but im happy it does.
Also hopes that things will turn out better in the relationship im in, we are both kinda stressed out i guess. He is wrking alot, and i have a son to take care of that require alot of attension, he is a big boy now.
But i also wanna have a job soon, to do something, or go to school and become something.
But atm, there is plenty of things i wanna do or be, i do wanna sew clothing, but also something with drawing like tato's, hairdresser etc, but i hope i can find a tato shop somewhere so i can start with something, and hopefully i succed on that so i can open my own shop, i dont know. That is something i deal with when that day comes.
First thing first, to make some phonecalls.
Other then this i dont have much to say. Loads of things im thinking of, not many knows what i think of or how i realy feel but i dont care, nothing new.
im off now, see ya
Other then that im start to plan my life here in England.
First thing first is to make a phonecall and fill a form, sort money out, get a doctor i can go to with my son, so he can have is injections so he wont get sick, and ofc i wanna find a place to stay for me vinc and my boyfriend, our own place.
Oh i cant wait, to have our own place, more freedom or what ever ya wanna call it. So i can cook dinner for us, have some swedish food lol. Get a sewing mashine so i can start making clothing again i guess, yea there is plenty of things i can think of that i just cant wait to get, and to do.
And i also wanna save up money for the future and things i wanna have, but i dont see my self success on that lol.
But oh well, thuesday, my adoptivparents will get here to visit us, for 3 nights, we ganna stay with them in an apartment they rent. I hope it will al be good and no problems, i would hate to get dissapointed again, know what i mean?
But i dont expect to much. They also ganna meet my boyfriend, we see how that goes. Not that much can happen, and no worries for him, its not like they ganna move over here , haha.
Moving over here and get everything sorted seems unbelivieble, hard to just belive it happen, but im happy it does.
Also hopes that things will turn out better in the relationship im in, we are both kinda stressed out i guess. He is wrking alot, and i have a son to take care of that require alot of attension, he is a big boy now.
But i also wanna have a job soon, to do something, or go to school and become something.
But atm, there is plenty of things i wanna do or be, i do wanna sew clothing, but also something with drawing like tato's, hairdresser etc, but i hope i can find a tato shop somewhere so i can start with something, and hopefully i succed on that so i can open my own shop, i dont know. That is something i deal with when that day comes.
First thing first, to make some phonecalls.
Other then this i dont have much to say. Loads of things im thinking of, not many knows what i think of or how i realy feel but i dont care, nothing new.
im off now, see ya
Hard Work
Went to another citizen advice. 30 min drive, waiting for an hour just to be there talking for 2 min. What a waste of time. And they didnt give us any information, but there is things we need to do first before they will hep us and it will cost money. I hope that will be worth it.
Except from that, world of warcraft dont work as it should do, i cant see the chat, and it have been wierd with other things, so now im doing the 3rd repair on the game in 6 month. Also the worse part of it is the addons i lose.
So right now its repairing itself, and im just sitting here waiting, soon to make food for my beautiful baby boy Vincent.
Oh my he is getting big now. Im so praud of him!
Cant belive how fast time goes by, he is over a year old now. He say "Birdy" al the time, to everything, his favorite word at the moment. Here in this family they have a bird and he like it. They also have a dog, and Vincent is always looking for him, hehe.
Latly his favorite toy to play with now is a ballon or a ball. Its fun to watch him play, makes us laugh alot.
Oh well off to make soon food now.
See ya!
Except from that, world of warcraft dont work as it should do, i cant see the chat, and it have been wierd with other things, so now im doing the 3rd repair on the game in 6 month. Also the worse part of it is the addons i lose.
So right now its repairing itself, and im just sitting here waiting, soon to make food for my beautiful baby boy Vincent.
Oh my he is getting big now. Im so praud of him!
Cant belive how fast time goes by, he is over a year old now. He say "Birdy" al the time, to everything, his favorite word at the moment. Here in this family they have a bird and he like it. They also have a dog, and Vincent is always looking for him, hehe.
Latly his favorite toy to play with now is a ballon or a ball. Its fun to watch him play, makes us laugh alot.
Oh well off to make soon food now.
See ya!
Hero Of The Day, My Mom!
Yesturday i talked to my mom. She told me she was the hero of the day. When she said that, i understod that something happend. She told me how she saved a boys life, he was only 2 years old.
This is the story.
My mom was out with my little sister. They see a boy, with a bottle, the boys mom was infront of him, but atleast 30m away from him, in other words, she had no clue what her son was up to.
They see this boy putting his bottle down and step out on the road. My sister tells mom "that looks dangerouse mom" and without thinking my mom starts running after the boy. My sister screams for mom, she can see the heavy trafic. First car stoped for him, but there was heavy trafic on the other road (the other line). But my mom got there in time, picked him up and got him away from al the cars. The boy was lucky that day.
Shaking and in tears, in chock, my mom return to this boys mother. The mother to this child heard my sisters screaming, she did turn around, but didnt even attemp to run to her own son. She barly said thank you to my mom.
I am very praud of my mom, how she saved this little innocent child, but it makes me wonder why this boys mom didnt even care? was she to leave him alone on the streets or something? Now i am a mom my self, i raised my son by my self, and i tell ya it is hard. But i would never ever let anything happen to my son. Beeing outside you have to pay alot of attension, you never know what can happen. Either they pick up something, or they start run away, or someone take the child away from you. This woman with this child, must be sick. Atleast in my opinion. Why didnt she give her son attension? Why didnt she run after him after turning around seeing what was going on? Why wasnt she thankfull?
Some ppl dont desirve to have any children, and she is one of them.
Like i said, im praud of my mom. The children is our future, and we should be carefull and loving to them.
So keep an eye on your child, and even trough hard time, look at you baby boy/girl, and be thankfull for what you got and be praud of that child and be praud of your self for raising this child in a loving and caring home, couse thats what they desirve.
Keep your head high mom, be praud, and lets pray that this little innocent child have a health, loving life.
This is the story.
My mom was out with my little sister. They see a boy, with a bottle, the boys mom was infront of him, but atleast 30m away from him, in other words, she had no clue what her son was up to.
They see this boy putting his bottle down and step out on the road. My sister tells mom "that looks dangerouse mom" and without thinking my mom starts running after the boy. My sister screams for mom, she can see the heavy trafic. First car stoped for him, but there was heavy trafic on the other road (the other line). But my mom got there in time, picked him up and got him away from al the cars. The boy was lucky that day.
Shaking and in tears, in chock, my mom return to this boys mother. The mother to this child heard my sisters screaming, she did turn around, but didnt even attemp to run to her own son. She barly said thank you to my mom.
I am very praud of my mom, how she saved this little innocent child, but it makes me wonder why this boys mom didnt even care? was she to leave him alone on the streets or something? Now i am a mom my self, i raised my son by my self, and i tell ya it is hard. But i would never ever let anything happen to my son. Beeing outside you have to pay alot of attension, you never know what can happen. Either they pick up something, or they start run away, or someone take the child away from you. This woman with this child, must be sick. Atleast in my opinion. Why didnt she give her son attension? Why didnt she run after him after turning around seeing what was going on? Why wasnt she thankfull?
Some ppl dont desirve to have any children, and she is one of them.
Like i said, im praud of my mom. The children is our future, and we should be carefull and loving to them.
So keep an eye on your child, and even trough hard time, look at you baby boy/girl, and be thankfull for what you got and be praud of that child and be praud of your self for raising this child in a loving and caring home, couse thats what they desirve.
Keep your head high mom, be praud, and lets pray that this little innocent child have a health, loving life.
Feeling down..
I guess its not depression, i dont know, i do feel down alot.
Resentl i just feel im so ugly, again.
Iv been feeling that way most of my life, but there have been times i actualy liked the way i looked the way i am, but again i fall into these thoughts of not beeing good enough.
Iv tried many things. I talked to a doctor for 2 years, though for other reasons aswell, it didnt help when it came down to how i feel about the way i look. I tried to have different hairstiles, nothing fits me. Different type of clothing, nothing fits me. To buy clothing usualy makes me very say, couse i dont like my boobs, there aint no boobs. Way to smal. I can find a bra or anything, no dresses or tops fits me couse im so flat.
Since i gave birth to my son my stomac is a little bigger, and if i eat less my stomac just look awfull.
When he was newborn i loved my boobs, they got 2 sizes bigger and were perfect. Not to big not to smal. But eventually they got back to even smaller then i used to have.
I dont know what to do about this. Nothing can change my mind. If a doctor with experienses of depression of al kind cant change my mind then who can?
I want a surgery but that wont happen in many years, IF it ever happens. I simply have no money for it.
Now i heard ppl say i look good and that i look like a model or what ever, but i know that is a lie.
Bf's in the past have al cheated, couse i havent been enough, always the boobs they say.
I had a bad life, only realy good thing that happen to me was the day my son was born. I dont regret having him, he is the best that ever happen to me even if it is alot of hard work with having a kid, specialy when taking care of it by your own, know what i mean?
Oh well. I have good days, but the thoughts of having a surgery is always there, every day.
I dont think many ppl understand how it feels to hate your own look.
There have been days when i questioned my self, why i was born, why am i on earth.
I dont think i will ever be truly happy, i dont belive i will get married, and i dont belive i ever have that surgery.
Al i do know, if i would get al that, it would make me the happiest girl on earth.
Resentl i just feel im so ugly, again.
Iv been feeling that way most of my life, but there have been times i actualy liked the way i looked the way i am, but again i fall into these thoughts of not beeing good enough.
Iv tried many things. I talked to a doctor for 2 years, though for other reasons aswell, it didnt help when it came down to how i feel about the way i look. I tried to have different hairstiles, nothing fits me. Different type of clothing, nothing fits me. To buy clothing usualy makes me very say, couse i dont like my boobs, there aint no boobs. Way to smal. I can find a bra or anything, no dresses or tops fits me couse im so flat.
Since i gave birth to my son my stomac is a little bigger, and if i eat less my stomac just look awfull.
When he was newborn i loved my boobs, they got 2 sizes bigger and were perfect. Not to big not to smal. But eventually they got back to even smaller then i used to have.
I dont know what to do about this. Nothing can change my mind. If a doctor with experienses of depression of al kind cant change my mind then who can?
I want a surgery but that wont happen in many years, IF it ever happens. I simply have no money for it.
Now i heard ppl say i look good and that i look like a model or what ever, but i know that is a lie.
Bf's in the past have al cheated, couse i havent been enough, always the boobs they say.
I had a bad life, only realy good thing that happen to me was the day my son was born. I dont regret having him, he is the best that ever happen to me even if it is alot of hard work with having a kid, specialy when taking care of it by your own, know what i mean?
Oh well. I have good days, but the thoughts of having a surgery is always there, every day.
I dont think many ppl understand how it feels to hate your own look.
There have been days when i questioned my self, why i was born, why am i on earth.
I dont think i will ever be truly happy, i dont belive i will get married, and i dont belive i ever have that surgery.
Al i do know, if i would get al that, it would make me the happiest girl on earth.
Moving to England ?
Im so nervouse. Tomorrow im going to a citizenadvice meeting. There we ganna talk about how to move to England.
Even if i move to England, there is still alot to think of. How to live, where to live. I do have a place to live now, but i soon have to get my own place together with my bf.
Also im thinking of what posibilitis i have, when it comes down to working and study here in England.
There is so much i wanna do, but it is so hard to chose. I wanna work with fashion, making clothing, but also beeing a hairdresser. My biggest passion i think would be the fashion. Iv done my own clothing since i was 10 years old.
But moving over here, is what i was to write about.
I am a little worried, i dont know how my bf feels about this. He say he wants to, still he seem so insecure, i think that is one of the reasons why im so nervouse about the whole thing. I realy hope he is fine with this and realy want this. It is a big thing to move to another country.
So i hope ya wish me best luck, i need it.
I want something good to happen in my life.
Even if i move to England, there is still alot to think of. How to live, where to live. I do have a place to live now, but i soon have to get my own place together with my bf.
Also im thinking of what posibilitis i have, when it comes down to working and study here in England.
There is so much i wanna do, but it is so hard to chose. I wanna work with fashion, making clothing, but also beeing a hairdresser. My biggest passion i think would be the fashion. Iv done my own clothing since i was 10 years old.
But moving over here, is what i was to write about.
I am a little worried, i dont know how my bf feels about this. He say he wants to, still he seem so insecure, i think that is one of the reasons why im so nervouse about the whole thing. I realy hope he is fine with this and realy want this. It is a big thing to move to another country.
So i hope ya wish me best luck, i need it.
I want something good to happen in my life.
Wedding
Hi, last saturday i was on a wedding. My bf's sister got married.
She was so beautiful =)
It was a nice wedding, smal and simple.
Afterwards we went to a bar, ate nice food. Later at nice we were drinking and dancing, and a few of them ppl was singing kareoke. It was al i nice day. We got home pretty late, so we had a babysitter for my son Vincent.
I wish to get married my self one day but i dont see that happen though.
I doubt anyone could ever love me enough to even ask for such thing, know what i mean?
Oh well, enough about my wishes, they aint ganna come true anyway unless someone knows magic =P
Lol!
She was so beautiful =)
It was a nice wedding, smal and simple.
Afterwards we went to a bar, ate nice food. Later at nice we were drinking and dancing, and a few of them ppl was singing kareoke. It was al i nice day. We got home pretty late, so we had a babysitter for my son Vincent.
I wish to get married my self one day but i dont see that happen though.
I doubt anyone could ever love me enough to even ask for such thing, know what i mean?
Oh well, enough about my wishes, they aint ganna come true anyway unless someone knows magic =P
Lol!
